Confused...

"keep pushing me away"......
I am not sure whether I do so all the time......
Pushing people away......
Away from my heart.....
I kept telling friends, I have no trust towards people......
Not being confident towards people.....
Am I,
not believing in people?
Or not confident with myself that I deserve much more?
Or,
I do not believe in LOVE (anymore)?
Do I,
keep pushing people away from me,
pushing sincere friendship,
pushing TRUE LOVE?
Do I, like a person?
Or I still can't forget of Him?